Sometimes I can't sleep at night.
Not because of Twitter or Instagram or music.
Sometimes I just lay there and think.
Not about my mistakes or over thinking what happened that day.
I think about my future.
Changing the world, graduating high school. (In no particular order)
Going to college, leaving the country, serving a mission.
Getting a college degree, meeting my husband, getting married in the temple.
What I might be most excited for, next to getting married, is to be a mother.
Having kids.
Painting their bedroom walls, eating Popsicles on the back porch with them.
Rubbing their backs when they lay their head on my lap in church.
Watching my husband coach their city league sports games and sitting on a blanket in the grass cheering way to loudly.
Making pillow forts in the basement and leaving them there so we can nap in them after church on Sunday. Going to the zoo and walking around for hours covered in sunscreen and animal smells. Singing them songs at night and then waiting in the kitchen because I know they'll want another drink of water before they can sleep.
Waking up and saying prayers and eating oatmeal. Doing homework and driving carpools and doing all of the messy things. Painting pictures and staining our new shirts because we forgot aprons.
No matter what titles, positions, or degrees I get in this life.. I honestly can't express how exciting and humbling I imagine it to be called "mommy". To bring spirits into this world and raise them and love them just sounds magical, am I right?
And this probably sounds goofy because this won't be happening for another ten years. But I'm still excited. They say that high school is the best time of your life, I don't believe that. I think that the best time of your life will be when you've found the love of your life and you're raising kids you didn't think was possible to love any more.
I hope that I can live my life worthy enough to raise Heavenly Father's children. And to teach them the gospel, and to watch them grow up and make a difference in our world. I think that sounds like happiness.
xoxoxo,
ella
P.S. I moved my blog from Blogger to a Wordpress. FINALLY. So here is the new adress to my blog. Same posts and everything! So go and follow! Thank you!
Monday, January 28, 2013
Monday, January 21, 2013
MLK
How long does it take for a person to change their life?
Is there a right answer to this question?
Maybe it's the three years it takes to go through high school that a person's life is truly changed?
The two years that you choose to serve a mission?
Or is it the three hours you spend in church on Sunday?
I don't think it's any of these things. I think it's in the seconds, in the moments that fill up these hours.
The smile that you give to a random person in class. The fifteen seconds it takes to pull your car over and ask a stranger if they want a ride. The thirty cents that you decide to drop in the change jar after getting your breakfast burrito.
The hand that you reach for, even though it makes you extremely nervous. The time you say no to something that you want but you shouldn't have.
I think that you can change your life every second. Every 60 seconds a new minute starts. A whole sixty seconds to do something different. A minute to look outside yourself and maybe even change someone else's life.
Don't wait for Sunday or New Year's or making a horrible mistake to change your life.
One person's actions have the power to change the universe.
Martin Luther King Jr. once said,
"The time is always right to do what is right."
MLK didn't wait for someone else to make a change. He changed his country, he changed his life, and he gave his life.
If you wait for the right time to change your life, it will never come. You're not going to find that moment anywhere.
So do it today. Whatever it is you're wanting to pursue, or create or leave behind. Today can be the day that you change your life.
xoxo,
ella
Is there a right answer to this question?
Maybe it's the three years it takes to go through high school that a person's life is truly changed?
The two years that you choose to serve a mission?
Or is it the three hours you spend in church on Sunday?
I don't think it's any of these things. I think it's in the seconds, in the moments that fill up these hours.
The smile that you give to a random person in class. The fifteen seconds it takes to pull your car over and ask a stranger if they want a ride. The thirty cents that you decide to drop in the change jar after getting your breakfast burrito.
The hand that you reach for, even though it makes you extremely nervous. The time you say no to something that you want but you shouldn't have.
I think that you can change your life every second. Every 60 seconds a new minute starts. A whole sixty seconds to do something different. A minute to look outside yourself and maybe even change someone else's life.
Don't wait for Sunday or New Year's or making a horrible mistake to change your life.
One person's actions have the power to change the universe.
Martin Luther King Jr. once said,
"The time is always right to do what is right."
MLK didn't wait for someone else to make a change. He changed his country, he changed his life, and he gave his life.
If you wait for the right time to change your life, it will never come. You're not going to find that moment anywhere.
So do it today. Whatever it is you're wanting to pursue, or create or leave behind. Today can be the day that you change your life.
xoxo,
ella
Sunday, January 20, 2013
Take Care
Warning: This post has nothing to do with the musical artist Drake. But I figure if I titled it that way maybe more people would read it? YA SUE ME.
Life is hard. People are hard on themselves. What's my advice?
Skip the gym, eat some cookie dough.
Take a nap.
Bake a birthday cake for no reason and eat the biggest slice while watching your favorite music videos.
Wear your hair naturally curly. Spend more money than you should.
Say no to somebody.
Take the long way home from work just so you can look at the mountains. Text that somebody who makes you happy , don't play hard to get.
Be selfish for ten minutes of your day.
Do something for yourself. Take care of yourself.
xoxoxo,
ella
Life is hard. People are hard on themselves. What's my advice?
Skip the gym, eat some cookie dough.
Take a nap.
Bake a birthday cake for no reason and eat the biggest slice while watching your favorite music videos.
Wear your hair naturally curly. Spend more money than you should.
Say no to somebody.
Take the long way home from work just so you can look at the mountains. Text that somebody who makes you happy , don't play hard to get.
Be selfish for ten minutes of your day.
Do something for yourself. Take care of yourself.
xoxoxo,
ella
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
New Year. Same You.
Twenty thirteen.
Such a weird word to roll off my tongue.
But it makes my soul shiver with excitement when I think about everything that I'm going to experience.
I'm already excited for the songs that I'll listen to. The summer anthems that we'll scream out of my sun roof. The songs that will make us sad inside because they remind us that we don't know when we will see each other again.
The nights that you stay up late buying as many McDonald's hash browns as you can and talking about everything you're grateful for. The nights that you feel like you just met someone for the first time again because you felt something amazing with them. Or the nights that you'll drive around listening to old mix CDs and thinking of your friends back home, but you're happy because this new chapter in your life is exciting.
The feelings. Oh the feeling of walking into a room not knowing a single face. But it's wonderful because at the same time nobody knows you, your mistakes, your secrets or your story. It's a new start. What about the unforgettable feeling you get when you see a stranger and for some reason you get really excited. For that flash of a moment you want to know everything about them and spend many more moments with them. And before another moment can begin, they're walking out the door and you're standing there wondering what just happened.
New can be beautiful. New can be exhilarating and breath taking. New can be slightly cold and awkward and may take some time to get used to. New can be scary and soul shaking.
There's going to be challenges, heartbreaks, and days of feeling lonely or lost. There's going to be days where you doubt yourself, when you don't know where you are going or if you made the right decision.
There is going to be days where you just want to sing (and you should, loudly). There will be days of butterflies and dancing in your living room and calling your best friend because they won't belive who finally texted you.
But no matter what this new year holds, you're still the same you. You're still the same, perfect, child of God that was created to overcome new obstacles and reach great heights. You have your testimony, your faith, and your Heavenly Father. Those things will never change and they are infinite.
I hope you all embrace the new year and don't back down from anything that comes your way! Get weird and get happy!
xoxoxo,
ella
"Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swamps of the not-quite, the not-yet, and the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists.. it is real.. it is possible.. it's yours.” -Ayn Rand.
Now playing: Give a Little Love, Blue Skies, and Our Window by Noah & The Whale
Such a weird word to roll off my tongue.
But it makes my soul shiver with excitement when I think about everything that I'm going to experience.
I'm already excited for the songs that I'll listen to. The summer anthems that we'll scream out of my sun roof. The songs that will make us sad inside because they remind us that we don't know when we will see each other again.
The nights that you stay up late buying as many McDonald's hash browns as you can and talking about everything you're grateful for. The nights that you feel like you just met someone for the first time again because you felt something amazing with them. Or the nights that you'll drive around listening to old mix CDs and thinking of your friends back home, but you're happy because this new chapter in your life is exciting.
The feelings. Oh the feeling of walking into a room not knowing a single face. But it's wonderful because at the same time nobody knows you, your mistakes, your secrets or your story. It's a new start. What about the unforgettable feeling you get when you see a stranger and for some reason you get really excited. For that flash of a moment you want to know everything about them and spend many more moments with them. And before another moment can begin, they're walking out the door and you're standing there wondering what just happened.
New can be beautiful. New can be exhilarating and breath taking. New can be slightly cold and awkward and may take some time to get used to. New can be scary and soul shaking.
There's going to be challenges, heartbreaks, and days of feeling lonely or lost. There's going to be days where you doubt yourself, when you don't know where you are going or if you made the right decision.
There is going to be days where you just want to sing (and you should, loudly). There will be days of butterflies and dancing in your living room and calling your best friend because they won't belive who finally texted you.
But no matter what this new year holds, you're still the same you. You're still the same, perfect, child of God that was created to overcome new obstacles and reach great heights. You have your testimony, your faith, and your Heavenly Father. Those things will never change and they are infinite.
I hope you all embrace the new year and don't back down from anything that comes your way! Get weird and get happy!
xoxoxo,
ella
"Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swamps of the not-quite, the not-yet, and the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists.. it is real.. it is possible.. it's yours.” -Ayn Rand.
Now playing: Give a Little Love, Blue Skies, and Our Window by Noah & The Whale
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